Final Consideration

Trust is fragile,

When you see a friend who is in great pain the first response is to help.



But after a time when they have done nothing to help them self

........When all there efforts seem to be in prolonging there own suffering

................ When all there efforts seem to be in making those around them tools of there suffering

.......................one begins to question and look and ask many unpleasant questions that were long avoided.



It hurts greatly when someone goes from being a good friend,

........To someone who you have to doubt there every word

...............When you ask them time and time again who they are

...................and they respond with emotional assault to you and search for faults to blame you with

.........................When they spit in your face when you first try to see past there lies with forgiveness

................................when they cast more lies and curse you for having to do it





Then it becomes doing what you must to preserve self

......We found our pain and looked it in the eyes

..........We got to know the pain as a person in its own right

..............We took our time to suffer in the measure that was deserved

......................And that was yesterday........





today it is a nice day, i am a little sick but otherwise quite ok. I am going to wake my brother soon and we will go for coffee, and I might spend the evening at my sisters or doing some overdue work for my hobbies.

But I said what i needed to say

Gave it the time it needed in my heart

Let it all come to light so i was no stranger to what i felt

and now i move on.